That's me. Totally me. HAHA.
I always tries to keep everyone happy.
Today is the very first time I walk around the whole of bishan alone.
All by myself.
I don't know why. I just want to be alone.
Living in my own world.
Sigh. I really don't know what da farkk happen to me.
Its like all of the sudden.
Fuck my life.
*Off NOTE*
2014!!!
Everyone is waiting for this moment in like a few hours time.
Everything starts afresh.
Brand new year.
Brand new month.
Brand new day.
I really hope 2014 will be a much better one for me.
2013 screwed me up. Totally.
Guess I will spend my new year eve celebration alone.
Don't ask my why.
I just want to be ALONE.
HAHA.
With regards,
Edmund Tannn.
Look! The amount of alcohol. Drooling already guys?
HAHA. That's the amount I took every week.
But definitely I must have this too!
The amount of kick that make everything slow down by at least 4 second.
One word to describe, perfect.
Seriously fuck all these shit.
Enough of being a mr nice or mr gentleman.
Everyone seems to be stepping on top of my head.
I will switch back to my old lifestyle.
Drugs, weeds and alcohol.
I am coming for you. Every week.
Always fucking listen.
That is the only time they speaks the truth.
Their suffering and so on. All the stuff they kept it in heart will release all out.
At that very point on wards, you'll see his true self. The weakness side of that person.
Goodbye.
With regard,
edmund tan.
Yes it took me lots and lots of courage to grow up.
To become the real me.
I changed. From a discipline boy to a totally opposite person, a bad one.
Smoke, fights, drugs, alcohol and collecting illegal debts from people. Everything that is against the law, I have a share in it.
Few years down the road, I tell myself am I doing the right stuff?
Is this suppose to be the real me? Even I myself don't know the answer.
But I only know one thing.
Being a nice guy will always get eaten by other people.
Get bullied by people who think that they are always the best.
Get hurt by the one you love when they don't even deserve your concern.
Taking advantage of your kindness and hurt you once they start to feel really guilty when you do something really sweet to them.
Fucked up right? Yes I know it better than anyone else because I personally experienced it before. Not once, not twice but thrice.
So in order not to get hurt by the opposite party? Win the game as fast as you can before you really fall in love with it.
I admit it is a little bastard to say this kind of stuff. But who cares? Who really bother if you fool around? Most important is don't ever get hurt. Never ever.
Up till now, I always tell myself I will never fucking drop a single tear for any girl anymore.
Not even one.
Picture speaks a thousand words.
Cheers!
Sadness and failures.
I faced it way too many times.
What to do? Fucking tell myself to get up and restart everything.
Way too many stuff to say but I can't seems to type it out.
Will blog again when I've the mood.
Bye.
With regards,
Edmundd Tann
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