Yes it took me lots and lots of courage to grow up.
To become the real me.
I changed. From a discipline boy to a totally opposite person, a bad one.
Smoke, fights, drugs, alcohol and collecting illegal debts from people. Everything that is against the law, I have a share in it.
Few years down the road, I tell myself am I doing the right stuff?
Is this suppose to be the real me? Even I myself don't know the answer.
But I only know one thing.
Being a nice guy will always get eaten by other people.
Get bullied by people who think that they are always the best.
Get hurt by the one you love when they don't even deserve your concern.
Taking advantage of your kindness and hurt you once they start to feel really guilty when you do something really sweet to them.
Fucked up right? Yes I know it better than anyone else because I personally experienced it before. Not once, not twice but thrice.
So in order not to get hurt by the opposite party? Win the game as fast as you can before you really fall in love with it.
I admit it is a little bastard to say this kind of stuff. But who cares? Who really bother if you fool around? Most important is don't ever get hurt. Never ever.
Up till now, I always tell myself I will never fucking drop a single tear for any girl anymore.
Not even one.
Picture speaks a thousand words.
Cheers!
Sadness and failures.
I faced it way too many times.
What to do? Fucking tell myself to get up and restart everything.
Way too many stuff to say but I can't seems to type it out.
Will blog again when I've the mood.
Bye.
With regards,
Edmundd Tann
